This, like walking down a hall of many doors with no windows,
is my decision to make, but if i could have a helping hand?
a caring word or phrase would make this choice so much more
bearable.
Please let me take your-
I'd like to say I am strong willed and courageous
but inside I know
you can see right through it and all my pretenses
and sense my weakened heart whose beats are so
hesitant that I doubt even my existence to you.
Have I chosen this way wrongly?
This path of deteriorating grey ?
I've lost the compass and the map
or never had it at all.
There is a pressure in my chest waiting to burst out any moment
like a voice weakly calling out to you and to me
There's a blockage in my view or a million paths tangled
like thorns lashing out at you
or latching onto me
Please let me take your-
What is this future you see?
A possibility you don't want to share with me
Why can't we go back to before decisions were ours
When the world was big, and bright,
and we could see one road untangled
When we could hold-
Please let me take-
It's something I've been wanting to say deep inside
confused by a myriad of superficial thoughts
a web of chains, events bound to distract
and yet this hidden thought keeps calling out to you and to me
So which door do I choose?
This, decision so heartbreaking like tearing the wings off a bird
is my choice to make, but if I could know your answer?
Would the path I take lead me away from you, a constant ache asks me
so despairingly.
I'd like to see us both walk the same bright white path
because I know
you can see right through all my pretenses
and sense my needful heart whose beats are so
hesitant in their existence until they see
the bright white that we can walk to.
Please Let me take-
Please let me take your hand
And let's walk ahead of that time before decisions were ours
When we can finally smile in our decisions
and our path is cleared.
Because the pressure in my heart will no longer be
bursting out to the world to share it's bright white
against the deteriorating grey
of the other lost paths.
